Since my last post things have changed, time has become my best friend and my worst enemy and yet every morning I get up looking forward to my day.
You see things have been a rollercoaster for me, my sister moving out, me leaving my job again and starting a new career (big word alert) my sister and brother leaving for the UK.
My riding being one of the only things keeping my head on my shoulders and my weekly coffee rides with Jay and Tyson that frustrate Rox and Ciara to the ends of the world because we stop “too many times” and we drink coffee “too much” and we literally take forever to ride 30km but heck its fun its an awesome way to spend a Sunday or Saturday morning and is just a great way to unwind after a crazy week and get ready for the new week!
While I can only be thankful for everything that has happened to me I have to realise that things aren’t always about me, things like my sister moving away have affected everyone in my family, my mom is trying to be strong yet I know she stays up at night reading our Facebook status’ and is wondering where time has gone and why her little kids are no longer the dependants they used to be.
Then there is my Dad, when I was a kid he was always the enforcer and the one to lay down the law yet lately he has become somewhat like a puppy dog and is very chilled and just goes with the flow, maybe its because he has mellowed or maybe this is his way of telling us that he wants us to make our own decisions now.
Both my parents have done everything for me and will do anything for me, even bail me out of jail for being stupid, they might just leave me there for a few days before just so we can have a laugh about it a bit later…
I have lost track of what my parents mean to me because of the timing that I have set out for myself. Its like I have been riding a time trial and this time trial is 40km long however if I don’t do it in 40min I go back to the start again without rest without looking at the crowd that has supported me and start again, smashing myself till I come across the line again and again beaten, broken and absolutely spent only to do it again and again never quite reaching that magical mark of “40min”. I have probably won the time trial a few times at 42min yet because I am too competitive for my own good it is never good enough.
My new job is one thing that has given me new vision for life and if you have seen me in the week since I was in Cape Town for training you would have seen the spark in my eye. It has also woken me up and made me realise that without planning you stand nowhere. I have always been that dude who is last to enter and usually blaming it on the circumstances surrounding my “Time Trial” yet now that I look at it there were no excuses there were no obstacles other than myself being stupid about my approach.
Without going on too long I need to say that the Crater Cruise this year turned into my target race instead of SSWC because financially I haven’t been anywhere near stable and while I planned meticulously and trained better than I ever have for crater I still came undone on the day, third was all I could manage yet in a small way I know that it was the best I had felt on a bike all year. When things go well you can’t help but analyse them and I can finally say that I got my nutrition right I got my setup perfect and well the rest just wasn’t good enough to be on top of the podium.
My season finishes off with the 94.7 and the Magalies Adventure 2 day event. I am looking forward to these two events as the 94.7 is the first race I will be competing in the Elite bunch on the road since 2011. The Magalies adventure will be a nice little change of scenery as I might be racing my new project (stay tuned for pictures of this unique excursion into singlespeed greatness!
Till next time
Greatness awaits all who make time for it!